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art-by-jes:

Tablet character scribble.
It’s Iosif.  From a different world than the one the Tomic takes place in, obviously, since here he’s a middle-aged goat man instead of a slightly vampiric pasty human.
Recycling characters is fun.

LOOK AT THIS BEAUTIFUL CREATURE YOU FOOLS! NOW BURN OUT YOUR EYES BECAUSE THERE IS NO USE IN SEEING ANYTHING ELSE EVER AGAIN. YOU ARE DONE LOOKING AT THINGS>

art-by-jes:

Tablet character scribble.

It’s Iosif.  From a different world than the one the Tomic takes place in, obviously, since here he’s a middle-aged goat man instead of a slightly vampiric pasty human.

Recycling characters is fun.

LOOK AT THIS BEAUTIFUL CREATURE YOU FOOLS! NOW BURN OUT YOUR EYES BECAUSE THERE IS NO USE IN SEEING ANYTHING ELSE EVER AGAIN. YOU ARE DONE LOOKING AT THINGS>

jagzilla:

Let me clarify something right off the bat; I do not suffer from chronic illness myself. Hence why this is more of a how to care for your friends who have it, rather than what to expect of others if you have it.

I get upset when people get cocky and condescending with my friends who cannot help the condition their body is in. I know these people just don’t understand, but telling someone to “just get up and do something" when their entire body screams in pain is not the way to go at all! Just because the pain isn’t a gaping, bleeding wound for you to see doesn’t mean it’s not there, NOR that it’s not a valid physical pain.

I count myself very, very lucky to be healthy enough to get up every morning and go about my day, and it’s depressing to even myself that it took until I met a dear friend of mine who suffers from chronic illness to realize it. To appreciate it fully. Please, please, be grateful you are able bodied (to varying degrees) and do not coerce those who talk about their pain into doing the things YOU think they SHOULD be able to do.

If someone talks about their pain on their blog, try not to see it as enabling. There will always be people who fake being sick, and maybe the extra info they gather will help them fake better, but there is also a chance someone else who suffers in silence will see those posts and realize that maybe, they too suffer from this illness people talk so little about. And this is what is important.

Last but not least— I wish I could give you some of my spoons, AJ ;v;

Ahh this is perfect. I’m pretty darn lucky with my friends, though, they’re all wonderfully understanding and supportive, even when I’ve canceled plans on them a million times or all I can do when I’m with them is lie around like a potato. But this message is seriously important. There are certainly times when I AM lazy, but that usually doesn’t stop me from actually doing the thing. Pain is what keeps me from doing the thing. But like I said, I’m SUPER LUCKY I have such awesome friends. I have relatives who’re not so awesome and dang.

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peachymints:

They are my precious treasures

This is too perfect

peachymints:

They are my precious treasures

This is too perfect

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aquapunk:

qveer:

plansfornigel:

screaming—banshee:

littleforestbats:

violenceandscience:

Silver/white hair love

Silver foxes.

babes

I can’t wait to go gray *A*

perfect humans <3

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21 Tips to Keep Your Shit Together When You’re Depressed.


A while ago, I penned a fairly angry response to something circulating on the internet – the 21 Habits of Happy People. It pissed me off beyond belief, that there was an inference that if you weren’t Happy, you simply weren’t doing the right things.

I’ve had depression for as long as I can remember. It’s manifested in different ways. I did therapy. I did prozac. I did more therapy. My baseline is melancholic. I’d just made peace with it when I moved, unintentionally, to a place that had markedly less sunshine in the winter. I got seasonal depression. I got that under control. Then I got really, really sick. Turns out it’s a permanent, painful genetic disorder. My last pain-free day was four years ago.

So, this Cult of Happy article just set me off. Just… anger. Rage. Depression is serious – debilitating, often dangerous, and it’s got an enormous stigma. It leaves people to fend for themselves.

It’s bad enough without people ramming Happy Tips at you through facebook. There is no miracle behaviour change that will flip that switch for you. I know, I’ve tried.

A friend of mine suggested that I write something from my point of view because, surprisingly, I manage to give an outwards impression of having my shit together. I was shocked to hear this. And I find this comical, but I see her point. I’m functioning. I’ve adapted. I’m surprisingly okay. I think the medical term is “resilient”.

So, here it is.

My 21 Tips on Keeping Your Shit Together During Depression

1) Know that you’re not alone. Know that we are a silent legion, who, every day face the solipsism and judgement of Happy People Who Think We Just Aren’t Trying. There are people who are depressed, people who have been depressed, and people who just haven’t been hit with it yet.

2) Understand that the Happy People are usually acting out of some genuine (albeit misguided) concern for you, that it’s coming from a good place, even if the advice feels like you’re being blamed for your disease. Telling you these things makes them feel better, even if it makes you feel like shit. (If they insist on keeping it up, see #12.)

3) Enlist the help of a professional. See your doctor. You need to talk about the ugly shit, and there are people paid to listen and help you find your way to the light at the end of the tunnel.

4) Understand that antidepressants will only do so much. They’re useful, they’ll level you out and give you the time you need to figure out your own path to getting well. They can be helpful. There are lots to choose from. They may not be for you, and even if they are, they take some time to kick in. Conversely, they may not be for you. Work with your doctor.

5) Pick up a paintbrush, a pencil, an activity you got joy from in the past and re-explore that. Or, sign up for the thing you always wanted to try. There is a long history and link between depression and creativity. It’s a bright light of this condition, so utilize it to your best advantage.

6) Eat nutritionally sound, regular small meals. If you’re having trouble eating, try to focus on what you’d like to eat. I went through a whole six week episode of tomatoes and cream cheese on a bagel twice a day. Not great, but it was something – helpful context, I’m a recovered anorexic. Conversely, if all you want to do is scarf down crap, try to off-ramp it by downing a V-8 and doing #9 for 15 minutes, and see how you feel. Chucking your blood sugar all over hell’s half acre is going to make you feel worse.

7) While you’re doing #3, get some bloodwork done. If you’re low on iron or vitamin D, or if your hormone levels are doing the Macarena… these can all contribute to zapping your energy or switching your mood to Bleak As Hell.

8) If you’re in bed and the “insomnia hamsters”, as I like to call them, are on the wheel of your head, watch Nightly Business News on PBS. This has the effect of Nyquil. Swap out your coffee for herbal tea. If you just cannot sleep, try the next tip….

9) Learn how to meditate. Start by focusing on your breathing. Not sleep, not thoughts. In through the nose, out through the mouth. Meditation is focusing on being present in your body, not careening around in your brain. It may not be as good as sleep but it will give you some rest and recharge you.

10) Face a window as often as you can – at work, at home. Look out into the world. Watch. Observe. Try to find something you find pretty or interesting to focus on. And, handily remember that one in five of those people out there feel the way you do.

11) Cry. Better out than in. Sometimes it’s not convenient or career-enhancing to cry, so find a private place as best you can and let the tears go. Carry Kleenex and face wipes and extra concealer if you wear makeup. You can always claim allergies.

12) Any “friend” who resolutely believes that your depression is because you’re lazy, because you’re not trying hard enough, who blames you for not bootstrapping out of it- that friend needs to be cut off. Polite (#2) is one thing, but there is a limit. You don’t have to explain, you can just not respond. You feel badly enough, you don’t need their “assistance”.

13) Limit your time with people who drain you. You know who they are. Often you don’t have a choice- but you can put the meter on. And, subsequently, be aware of what you’re asking of those close to you.

14) Everyone has shit they’ve got to deal with. What you have been saddled with is your shit. Recognize, just as you’re not alone, you’re also not unique. The grass may look greener, you may be jealous or envious of others who don’t have to deal with depression, but you likely do not know everything that’s going on with them.

15) Let go or be dragged. This is an old Buddhist saying. It’s a very useful way to frame aspects of depression. Betrayal, anger, fear… letting go is a process – often a painful and difficult process - but it’s ultimately going to show you the path out of this terrible place. Repeating the mantra can help when you’re feeling gripped by these feelings.

16) Wear clothes that make you feel confident. It takes as much time to put on nice clothes as it does to put on sweatpants. You will want to wear the sweatpants. Fight the urge. The whole “look good/feel better” campaign isn’t limited to cancer and chemotherapy. Or women.

17) Avoid fictional drama and tragedy like the plague. No Grey’s Anatomy, no to The Notebook, or anything that won a Pulitzer prize. You’ve got enough going on In Real Life. Comedy only. Or trashy stuff. Old episodes of WonderWoman? I’ve got the box set. Mindless drivel, like the latest CGI blockbuster. Or clever, funny books. David Sedaris. Jenny Lawson. Fiction exists to elicit emotion, and the emotion you need to express most right now is laughter.

18) Simple exercise, if you can. It can be something as simple as taking the stairs up a flight, or walking around the block. It doesn’t have to be elaborate, it doesn’t have to involve climbing a mountain or running a marathon. Baby steps.

19) Depression will lie to you. Depression will try to tell you what others are thinking. That you are unloved and unworthy, that others think little of you or don’t care – or even wish you harm. You are not a psychic. Keep repeating that. “I am not a psychic”. Repeat. The only way to know what another person is thinking is to up and ask them.

20) If you are well and truly losing this battle, reach out to someone. I’ve been the random friendly-but-not-close person who has fielded the occasional outreach. I like to think I’m not judgemental and generally resourceful, and others have thought the same, so they called and asked. You know someone like me. And they will help you.

21) Forgive yourself. I’m writing out all these tips, and I can’t always muster the strength to even stick my nose outside, or walk up the stairs, or eat my vegetables. Today, I got outside for ten minutes. I will try again tomorrow. And I will try again the day after that.

http://www.diycouturier.com/post/47249603128/21-tips-to-keep-your-shit-together-when-youre (via jessiawesome)

This list is fantastic. Especially 17. I have a friend who ONLY wants tos watch serious drama or tragedies and I just can’t take it. I need the Muppet Show and Psych and MLP and BOB’S BURGERS. NOTHING in this world cheers me up like Bob’s Burgers. It’s like weird cartoon prozac to me.

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weirdtakoyaki:

canyoushipit:

darkxbunnyprincess:

This is one of my favorite childhood stories.

WHAT THE FUCK

THIS BOOK FUCKED 5 YEAR OLD ME UP

THIS FREAKING BOOK. MY DAD GOT IT FOR ME AND AFTER I READ IT I MADE HIM TAKE IT BACK. FRIKIN LONG TEETH

(Source: sugarcoatedagony, via deltastic)

man i never post anything anymore. Have some birdy people! Tico the redwinged blackbird, Nayra the Purplish Jay, the twins Yaotl and Zolin the scrub jays, Jerva the jackdaw, Cusi the kestrel and Cualli the hoatzin. They all have wings but I didn&#8217;t draw any of them because if I was doing that too I&#8217;d never get any of them figured out.

man i never post anything anymore. Have some birdy people! Tico the redwinged blackbird, Nayra the Purplish Jay, the twins Yaotl and Zolin the scrub jays, Jerva the jackdaw, Cusi the kestrel and Cualli the hoatzin. They all have wings but I didn’t draw any of them because if I was doing that too I’d never get any of them figured out.

stephlaberis:

never-mor:

A commission. So many little dime rat accessories! <3

Also I have a facebook page now! ~> (link)

Visit nEVEr-mor.deviantart.com for current commission information.

OH MY HOLY SHIT I NEED THIS!

LOOK AT THIS AND DIE OF CUTE

Reference for my next job! I can totally do this… just.. draw Salt Lake City… all of it.